Monthly Archives: January 2012

A Broken Down Old War Horse

Posted on January 27, 2012 by

Almost every word I’ve written since Kevin died was typed on my work issued laptop computer. I originally set up the computer in January 2005. In the high tech world it’s considered an antique. Last week it started acting up, … Continue reading →

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Ups and Downs

Posted on January 26, 2012 by

Progress is measured in ups and downs. For a while I thought I was going through ups and downs, but in retrospect, those ups were not really ups. There were perhaps a slightly higher grade of low, but I think … Continue reading →

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So What Is It?

Posted on January 19, 2012 by

Everyone has ups and downs. Some days are better than others, sometimes you have a reason for feeling down and sometimes you just do. Of course, my family and I have suffered through an unspeakable trauma when we lost Kevin, … Continue reading →

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The Shrine

Posted on January 12, 2012 by

Kevin did his own laundry. I apparently didn’t do it right because I actually put cloths in the dryer instead of hanging them on the rack to air dry. For several months after he died there was a pile of … Continue reading →

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Guilt

Posted on January 7, 2012 by

I should have done more I should have done less I should have done something To avoid this whole mess. Shoulda, woulda, coulda. Everyone engages in this type of endless rehashing when something does badly. Of course, when your child … Continue reading →

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Another new year

Posted on January 3, 2012 by

As it always has, the clock turns and we flip over the calendar pages. Time passes, but for the last 14 ½ months I notice the passage of time much more than I ever did before, but I mark time … Continue reading →

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